"If I had my way about it..."

My good friend, Janet Paschal wrote this song several years ago (I think about ten years ago now). It articulates so very clearly just what my heart wants to express:

If I had my way about it,
I'd dance in grassy fields and fragrant meadows.
I would rise up in the morning
To hear the robin's lovely melody.

I would live in the wide spaces
Far away from hurting places
I would bear a cross that asks much less of me.
I'd never sail in troubled winds
Or on the raging seas
If only You had left it up to me.

But if I'd had my way
I might be wading through the rivers
When You wanted me to walk upon the seas.
And if I'd had my say
with all of my wants and whims and wishes
You know how weak, how shallow I would be.
If only You had left it up to me.

And if I'd had my way about it
I would only know Your majesty and glory.
I would pass my cup of sorrow
To someone far more willing to receive.
I would pen the grandest phrases
I would sing such lofty praises
I would sail above my own humanity..
The wounded would never die
And hearts would never bleed...
If only You had left it up to me.

But if I had my way
I might be wading through the rivers
When You wanted me to walk upon the seas.
And if I had my say,
With all my wants and whims and wishes
You know how weak, how shallow I would be...

I trust Your wisdom over mine
Because You've proven over time
That in my narrow way of seeing things
I leave the best behind sometimes...
I might not have stayed close to You, Lord
If I'd had my way.
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Almost more than my small mind can wrap itself around. I'm so eternally grateful that such a marvelous and mighty God can bring order and sense to our lives, even when we think that He isn't doing it "our way."

What about you? If you had "your way" in life's most important issues---where would you be?